Why I love thanks giving

I just remembered that this was about the time that I met my Teddy Bear 5 years ago. It was the weekend before Thanks Giving. We met on Sunday and I flirted like never before and the rest is history. I fell in love with him at first sight and I love him more and more every day. I am so happy I found him.

My Baby is SO funny

I have to post this before I forget about it. The other day I was changing Carmens diaper and she was crying because she had a mild diaper rash so I said "It's ok baby I am going to put some goo on your bottom and it will feel so much better" so I did. When I was done I said "isn't that better baby" and she shook her head no. I think its so funny when she shakes her head to tell me what she wants but that time it really got me. "See all better" says I and she says NO ITS NOT MOTHER. It's like every day she grows up a tiny bit more.

What a ride

Yesterday was a roller coaster. Good Bad Good Bad.......

Bad: It started with Carmen being sick so she didn't sleep good which means I didn't either.

Good: Then when Andria came to watch Carmen while I went to the Dr. she gave me a beautiful bracelet that says "A sister is a forever friend". I got all teary.

Good: Then I had a Dr. Appt that went GREAT! I do not have GD I did not gain any weight the last three weeks (YOOHOO) and my BP was really good 120/66. And I found out that at my next appt I will start having weekly NSTs to make sure I am not contracting. I love those. I get to sit in a comfy recliner ( I have been wanting to get one of those really ugly but ridiculously comfortable lazy boy recliners because I am getting pretty uncomfortable lately) and listen to Louis's heart beat for 30 mins. Can it get any better than that?

Bad: But then I had to get a shot. Those suck. It made my arm really tingley and they made me stay about 15 minutes later than I should have had to. I hate getting shots. I can always feel the chemical in my arm for hours.

Uncomfortable: Then I could only get Carmen to nap while I was holding her so I put her in the snugli and held her for about 3 hours. Its kind of hard to do it because it puts her right on my belly which is getting really big and the pressure hurts. And she kept waking up about every 20 minutes and she would start fussing and crying so I had to keep rocking her and jiggleing her. That was kind of good because I love holding her and watching her sleep. Shes so pretty.

Bad: Then I started having contractions. I don't think they were bad ones but it did keep going for about an hour and a half. And they were pretty close together. It freaked me out and I had to call Andria to calm me down. I did not want to go to the ER. But it finally stopped.

I am really tired because I am 7 months pregnant (today) and because I could not sleep good the last 2 nights because Carmen kept waking up crying. I have about 9 weeks to go. I am so excited! I keep going back and forth between being terrified about this huge change in life we are about to make and being so happy and excited I just want to cry. I am super emotional right now. I have been crying almost every day this week. I am doing alot better since I started taking zoloft. I can even deal with MIL better. Although she really pissed me off this weekend. I will save that for a MIL post later. I have to do some work now so Later.

I was not cheated

So far this pregnancy has been great. The only things I have had a hard time with is the usual worry " what if he doesn't make it" "what if hes the devil" and " I wish I could blow out my vagina instead of having to have another C-Section". But today I was reading my feeds and I read This post by Trish about her adorable baby boy Robbie who was born at 26 weeks. She didn't get to hold him for 5 days. And she didn't get to take him home for 96 days. With Carmen I didn't get to see her again (after they pulled her from my belly) for 11 hours, it was torture. I could not stop crying. The nurses kept coming in and saying you have to stop crying. Sean thought something was wrong with me because my eyes were almost swollen shut. And my BP would not go back to normal. But as soon as they brought her to me......it was like a scene from the movies. The nurse who brought her was saying "do you know how to change her diaper...blah blah blah" I said "Give me MY BABY" and it was the most wonderful thing in the world.

Can you hear the angels singing when you look at this pic? Anyway after reading Trish's post I don't feel cheated. Thank you Trish. I don't care at all that I don't get to blow out my vagina. I am happy that I am getting a baby and that's all that matters. Hopefully I wont have to wait 11 hours to hold him but if I do I can remember that I will get him after a short while and that I can keep him.