Louie-cito

Well we had our first Dr. visit for #2. We found out we are 14 weeks along. We find out what we are having in 6 weeks. We also found out we will have to have a C-section but its ok we were expecting it. We got the cutest pics of new baby with tiny arms and hands. I can't wait to meet new baby.

Also today I felt #2 kick for the first time.

#2 is kicking my butt with back pain. And Hubby is far from understanding because "My back hurts so bad ALL the time" So he has no sympathy for a preggo. What an ARSE...am I right.

All the thoughts in my head

I feel like I am on a roller coaster right now. First I feel GREAT (great for me) and then the next day I can barely get out of bed. I hate that. I want stability. I want to be stable.

On Sunday someone was talking about love and how it can help you overlook flaws. I needed to hear it because I have been focusing on how irritating MIL is and I need to be the bigger person. She is not going to change because no one has ever made her behave herself. Any bad behavior is excused by "oh its a Jones thing" or "grandma was just like that" as if its ok to hurt people because your mom did that too or its something you have done your whole life. Any way I am getting off topic. She is going to continue being MIL no matter what I say so I have to find a way to deal with it. I think she is trying because last time I saw her she did nothing in particular, but I still came away wanting to shoot myself in the head. It was little things. Her cutting the banana up smaller after I gave it to baby. is it just me or is that rude? I feel like it was her trying to be controlling because she knows better. I think I just need a break. I can't get a break from them.

Also it made me think do I always have to have someone to complain about? because it seems like there has always been someone like this in my life. At all times. So is it me? Or is it something about me? Is it that I attract people who want to control me? How can I stop this.

Thursday Hubby has a Dr. appointment. YAHOO. He is going to get some drugs. Finally. He is in a bad mood ALL THE TIME. it is daunting to think that you are going to spend the rest of your life with someone who is always unhappy. I don't know what I am going to do if it doesn't work or if he wont take it. I have so much hope that this will help him. What if my expectations are too high. Hes just so depressed he can't function, nothing makes him happy. I don't know what to do for him. Here's hopin'.

Oh and in lighter news I got the address on my DL updated today (finally) and I went in to do it because the pic on my last one was SOOO BAD despite the fact that I tried hard to get a good one. It was scary bad. So I told the lady I came in because the pic was so bad and I showed it to her. After she took the pic she said Its better....and it was. So much better. YAY. 6 to 8 weeks and I will have a DL with a pic that looks like me. The last one was so bad it looked like a different person. Although I think that's because I feel like a different person now. I do feel better that I've felt for a long time. Even though I feel like I am on a roller coaster. Ok well that was long enough and if you made it here you really must love me so thank you.

MILisms

I have a really good one today. MIL is always telling us what to do and how to do everything right? Well one subject that really gets me is food for Baby. We give Baby pumpkin seeds. She loves them and they are easy to clean up, they don't stain and they are good for her, no sugar no carbs nothing bad. Well MIL and SIL both have a problem with it. Not that I care because neither of them have raised a valid concern. SIL said that the seeds could scratch Baby's intestines. What a joke. Well any way we went to MILs on friday so that we wouldn't have to see them the rest of the weekend and of course she was telling me what to feed Baby. She said to give Baby Cheerios because they had very little sugar and she wont choke on them because they have the little hole in the middle. I started laughing because that's funny right but no she wasn't joking. She was serious. What did I get myself into? I didn't need to be warned about marrying Hubby I needed to be warned about MIL. How stupid to you have to be to think you couldn't choke on a cheerio because it has a hole in it.

Also I was very pissed about this: PIL bought a duplex for Hubby and I to live in. We paid $475 for a deposit. We just got our deposit back....that's right all $9 of it. MIL sent a bogus list of expenses. $138 for cleaning-But I know we left that place way cleaner than when we moved in. And MIL is so obsessed with saving money and not being wasteful that I would think she would let us know if there was a problem with something so WE wouldn't have to pay 140 dollars that we didn't have. ( I had plans for that money we were going to use it to go to Belton ) $36 for a "pet deodorant" which is retarded because that place had the worst old house smell I have ever smelled. $26 for cleaning supplies. What kind of cleaning supplies did she buy? $90.63 for damaged screens, now that one I expected because our dogs did finish off the screens. But if they really paid 90.63 for screens than again we got ripped off. Oh and she sent this letter with it saying: Please find enclosed a refund check along with an accounting of your security deposit for the apartment you rented at (address) then it has a lame excuse as to why it was 4 months late and its signed Mom.

I love how she thinks she is so professional. what a joke. She should have just kept her $9. I decided we are not going to say one word about this. Because obviously money is very important to her. We are making 13,000 a year right now versus their making 50,000 but don't worry we will suck up 300$ of bogus charges. I guess I was just raised very differently. It just pisses me off. Because we were not given an option. She spent 300 dollars of our money without letting us know that there was a problem. It is a joke because if shes not telling us how to raise our child and everything we are doing wrong with that than she is telling us how to do our finances. And she doesn't run their finances. She is really bad with money. She can say what she wants but shortly after buying that duplex she was offered 20,000 more than she paid and she turned it down. And it was because she thought she could have gotten more. Even though she would tell you that's not true....it is. I have to stop talking about this because I am getting more and more upset and I could go on all day.