Carmencita

Lately when you ask Carmen what shes doing she says "anything"

It really cracks me up. I try not to laugh but sometimes I can't help it and then she will ask "why are you laughing"

We got her a fish. A beta named Bernie. I have no idea where the name came from but I like it. She has tried to feed him sunflower seeds, a muffin, milk and juice so far. Its only been 2 days.

She is sick right now and keeps telling me she needs to go to the Dr to get the eggs out of her throat. I am pretty sure her Mimi told her that.

The Bloggess

Well last night was interesting

I got to go but there was only standing room by the time I got there. Which was fine I really wanted to see Jenny because she reminds me to find joy in the little things and where ever you can. The part of her book that she read was ridiculously funny, of course. But when it came time to meet her I waited for about 30 minutes and then realized that if I stayed and met her I would start crying. In fact I did cry and I hadn't even met her yet. I had my own bathroom party. So when I stopped crying I went down stairs and got myself a 2$ bookmark instead of the 26$ book. I don't have a place to keep books in my tiny house and I wouldn't be able to display it anyway. I love my new book mark. And when I look at it from now on I will think of Jenny and being furiously happy. And that was the whole point for me

Afterwards we went with The ILs to dinner at Red Robin and I took a photo in the bathroom of myself because I keep forgettting to the the one from Sean.

THis is NOT a pregnancy picture. I repeat this is NOT a pregnancy picture. It's just a look how much weight I've lost picture.

I am still feeling a little overwhelmed with everything from last night and I cant explain it but . . . .  

Its ok.

Today I had dental work done and More is getting done tomorrow so I am going to go to bed.

Good night

Shorty

I am going to go see The Bloggess today and I really wish I had a small taxidermy-ed animal that died of natural causes to bring with.  I just know that Jenny and I should be best friends. I really love the furiously happy thing she is. 

Also last night I saw The Lucky One. It was ok. I thought it was going to be better but the notebook it was not. 

30

Well yesterday was my birthday. I am now in my 30s. A lot of people go off on how old they are and what not but I don't feel any older. I believe that your 30s are the best years of your life. My 20s were definitely better than my childhood and teens so hopefully life will keep getting better with each decade. 

But yesterday I was in such a bad mood and so were the kids. I had to work and they would not let me. I ended up locking them out of the office just so I could finish. Then I took them out of the house because I had a bunch of errands to run.I had to return the cable box and get an oil change and inspection. So we dropped off the car at a little place that did both and went to lunch. I think Carmen is trying to kill me because twice she stopped in the middle of a busy parking lot entrance and threw a major fit. I ended up grabbing her arm and carrying her to safety. I was pretty upset with her. But I still managed to get a lot done despite her being a pill. When we got home she and Louie took a nap and I cleaned the house and listened to music and embroidered. And when Sean got home from work we went to a restaurant and had margaritas and nachos. The kids played on the playground of doom at the restaurant. But the day ended well and that is pretty much all you can ask for.

Sean took some pictures of me that show I've lost a lot of weight but they are not on my phone so I can't add them to this post. Sorry.

I looked for a 30 themed picture to post instead but I like this the most

Carmencita

Sean told me the best story about Carmen.

Sean told me that he was bribing Carmen to clean up around the house with M&Ms. She came over to tell him she picked up the living room and he told her there were still a few things to pick up before she could have more. She said "god dang it" and her shoulders drooped. 

Today Sean decided to take us fishing. The kids have their own poles. So he spent the whole time fishing with Carmens tiny pink and purple barbie pole. That was funny enough. But, he was using worms as bait and when Carmen found them she got so excited. She was no longer interested in fishing and only wanted to play with them. Then Sean used all but the last one and Carmen claimed it as her pet. She named it Dora and was very upset that Dora couldn't come into the house. She put leaves and grass into the little box the worm came in and arranged everything just right. It was very cute. She LOVES animals and bugs. At her Mimi's house she loves collecting "beetles" and insisted we take some home with us the last time we were there.
At the park there was a tiny puppy she kept picking up and would not leave it alone.

I love her.
I have decided to glue an envelope into her baby book so I can write her letters. I want her to know no matter what that I love her more than anything in the world. I hope we always stay friends. 

She was painting this morning. One of her favorite things ever. And she said " Look Mommy C for Carmen" and then she added one for me and one for Louie. 

Crazy and busy

Last night while I was picking up the house for the night Carmen ran over to me and said "mommy my lip" She was laughing but her top lip was SUPER puffy right in the middle. I started freaking out and laughing at the same time. She thought it was funny! Most people don't laugh when they are having an allergic reaction. I gave her a dose and a half of benedryl and it was gone in an hour. It took me forever to fall asleep after that. We think it was a reaction to our dogs flea spray. (hopefully)

My Dr changed my meds. I am on prozac (again) now and wellbutrin. Tuesday was a fantastic day but yesterday sucked. However my house is clean which is a good sign. If I care about how it looks that I know my meds are helping even if I don't really feel better. You can no longer get Wellbutrin free through the company so I am getting mine from a canadian online pharmacy for WAY less than any of the pharmacys in my area. A months supply here would cost me 140 but I am getting 3 months for 76$ including shipping. I researched how to not get scammed and so far its working. Sean can get 3 months supply for him for 45$ 

Right now the money really matters. My salary just got cut in half. And my salary is a third of our income. We implemented a budget last month (luckily) that is working for us and while it will be really tight I think we are going to make it. And hopefully I can make a little side money with reflexology.

We finally got to celebrate our 7th anniversary last weekend. We had gotten a gift certificate to the restaurant we got married at. The food was so good I couldn't hear what Sean was saying to me. Then we went and got frozen yogurt and went to home depot and the dollar store. We went out at 5 and were home by 8 exhausted and ready for bed. We are such an old couple. 

I should probably go cook breakfast for the kids

Same old same old

Nothing new here. It;s all the same Yada yada. Dad is staring his mortality in the face. Money sucks. 

Still excited that I am a size 16.  

I am starting a reflexology business and that is a bit exciting. I have been studying reflexology for 12 years and I really love it. I did it for a friend last week as a trial session to see how it would go and it was relaxing for me too.

Last weekend my aunt came and got Carmen for the weekend. They left on friday and Louis was super pissed that he didn't get to go. He threw a 20 minute tantrum. But on tuesday when my mom and dad picked up Carmen for me she and Louis were so happy to see each other. They screamed and ran to each other. THey kept hugging and it was adorable.