Every time we are making progress and I think ok this is ok, we are going to make it. He goes and makes such a huge ass out of himself and I cant stand to look at him. Is it wrong of me to wish that just once mil would say well you are doing such a good job being a mom that I am not going to say anything.

Funny pic

Is this not the best pic ever!

Carmencita

Today I have a funny story to tell! My twin got married on sat and I changed out Carmen's earrings for the wedding. I went to put them back yesterday and I could not find one of them. Then I remembered the day before I had stood Carmen up against the coffee table so she could watch her show and I could wash some dishes and I looked back to check on her and she was chewing on something so I ran over and scooped a penny out of her mouth. At the time I thought nothing of it. Well actually I thought "if she craps out two dimes and a nickel then you can worry". But when I went to change her earrings back and one was missing I thought I bet she ate one of them before I got to her. So I got her poopy diaper out of the trash and checked it, no earring, plenty of gags though. And I kept checking every time there was poo in her diaper, seemed like every time I changed it there was poo in it. I think she did that on purpose. At the end of the day I was getting her ready for bed and I changed her poopy diaper and sure enough there was an earring in there. EWWWWWW. So I took it out and boiled it forever, then I scrubbed it with soap. She is now wearing pretty gold earrings and I have a HILARIOUS story to embarrass her with. That turd can you believe it. And then tonight she tried to eat one of the ones I took out today ( you think I would have learned my lesson and put them away or not left her standing at the coffee table).

P.S. I give up trying to anonamize us

The Husband (of my dreams)

Well Hubby is feeling and acting much better. Right now he is putting Baby to sleep, singing to her along with her music. And I didn't have to ask him to do it. He had a follow up visit today with his Dr. and She said we do need to up his dose but she thinks he is on the right medication. I am so happy. He is much more like the Hubby I married. He is in a better mood more often. He still has his moments but its better. And he is helping out now. Today I was so tired he brought her to me to feed her, then he gave her her breakfast and did the dishes and got stuff ready for the day. All without me asking. And he let me sleep. He never lets me sleep. Its like he thinks if I can't sleep neither can she. But not any more. I really love him a lot. The last 2 years have been rough but now I understand and its getting better. It is helping both of us to feel better.

I started writing this days ago but am just now finishing it.

Sean is acting so much better. He is like a different person. He is helpful and understanding and appreciative and getting better and better every day. Now when I go off on him ( the preggo hormones are kicking in) he takes it and apologizes for whatever hes done. We can hold a whole conversation without arguing. I feel like I am falling in love all over again. Also he got a job. He started Monday and he likes it so far. But its helping him too. Because he feels like a man now. He is our provider. It is such a relief. And even though I miss him and there have been many times where I wish he were home so he could take care of Carmen its nice to have alone time. And to see him gaining self confidence. I am so happy. For him and for me.