MIL

Apparently we are not doing anything right. Last month it was don't give Baby food it will make your milk dry up. And today it was Baby should be eating 3 meals a day not 1. And don't give her the pumpkin seeds she will choke. HFH. I am so irritated and I can't talk to hubby about it. We got into a fight on the way home about it. He says that it makes him resent her more to hear me complain. But that's not fair because I resent her and I have no reason to not resent her. Shes not my mother. When Hubby complains about my mom I say your right She is  a bitch and OCD. But he gets mad. 

Most of the time he was in the other room or outside with FIL but I had to sit with MIL because she wanted to see Baby. GRRR. I Cant Take It. STFU. 

Also MIL was saying how she saw a lady with her grandbaby and she couldn't wait till that was her. That's not going to happen. She is such a dumb bitch. Gees I really hope no one finds this blog. 

(Edited to add) I just remembered something MIL said. She said "you are the center of Baby's universe, I bet you love it". And my thoughts were of course I do but she is the center of mine and I said "well she is the center of mine" but the way MIL said it I know she wishes she were the center of Baby's universe. Not that she would want to take that away from me but I know she wishes she were. When we found out we were having a baby MIL said she wanted us to have a girl so that there was a little girl who loved her. Why is MIL so insecure? She is always saying to Baby " you are so loved" which I find very weird. Or " your mom (or dad) loves you" to baby. Again that is SO weird. Maybe if she showed a little respect for her own children they could respect her and they would be kind to her. I got irritated with FIL today too because Hubby was telling him that MIL is so difficult because everything we do is wrong and FIL said "well she will let you make the decision but she will tell you her opinion" MIL doesn't just tell you her opinion  she tells you "facts" and if you don't believe her and do what she said then you are being disrespectful and in some cases you are killing Baby. Anyway I kind of feel bad for MIL that she is so insecure because you know how bad she must feel about herself. And it helps me to understand with Hubby because he feels the same way. They, for different reasons, don't accomplish very much so they never feel good about themselves. MIL because she is so slow, I am not even kidding about that she takes forever to do anything and is late everywhere. And Hubby because he cant focus. I think he has ADD. anyway they need to be careful because I will not let them effect Baby with their issues. And that goes for myself. My weight issues are MY weight issues. Baby will be allowed to play with Barbies unless it effects HER. not me. I love that little girl so much. No one is going to hurt her in any way. Including me. 

*think good things, think good things*

I am going to put baby to bed and eat some comfort food. 

Later