AmbyLand

So much is going on right now. Good and not so good but its not that bad yet. Baby is learning new things every day...literally. She can walk around in her walker, is using her pincher really well, can click her toung, kisses the air, waves (but ONLY when she wants to), she demands to be fed real food at least 2 (sometimes 3) times a day, and she loves her mommy best. I am so in love with her I can't wait till #2 gets here.

Hubby and I are getting along good most of the time but his boss hasn't called him in 2 months (hes a contract employee and they call him when needed) so we are having a hard time with that. But at least its not marital problems.

And as for me....this ship is starting to sink. With Baby I was so depressed, more that I had ever been and so far I had been feeling fine but this week I am starting to feel bad. This ship is sinking fast. I am going to make a Dr appointment and get some happy pills because I WILL NOT do this again. And if I sink as low as last time I will miss out on the next 8 or 9 months of Babys life. I do not want that. I am so tired of people. I guess its more that I can not deal with people right now. I have too much of my own crap going on. And most people suck me dry. Wow I am...whats the right word...amused...surprised....see how nuts it is that I can turn into a different person in 1 week. I feel like a different person. I don't want to talk to anyone or do anything or go anywhere. bleh