I have been feeling extremely tired physically and slightly depressed. The Zoloft is helping but I am still sadder than I wish. I am super emotional. I am not sure if that is from the pregnancy or the zoloft regulating my hormones (or whatever it does) but I have been crying A LOT. I've already cried like 3 times today. I feel bad because I feel like I am being a bad mom. All I can really do is sit on the couch at this point. I am barely keeping up with the basic necessity's around the house. I am only able to cook about once or twice a week. I should be able to do more. I am being a bad wife. As soon as Sean gets home I am like what are you doing for dinner, can you wash the dishes. But I cant do it right now. I get out of breath walking to the bathroom.
Not to mention that I feel so guilty about this pregnancy. I have not taken my prenatals because they made me throw up every time. And I am unhealthy and now its affecting the baby. My blood pressure wont stay down. And that makes me SUPER upset. And I just want to nap. I need sleep so bad but I cant sleep in or take naps because of Carmen. I can't leave her crying in her crib for hours just so I can sleep.
Before I used to feel so emotionally exhausted that I couldn't get stuff done but now I feel so physically exhausted that I can barely move. and that makes me depressed.
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