AmbyLand

I feel pretty blah today. It's raining a little bit today. I used to LOVE the rain. It got me all excited. But since our house flooded I really haven't felt that way. It's more of a depressant now. I still love it but I can't seam to get motivated on rainy days. I am totally overwhelmed today. The house is a MESS. And we have company coming tomorrow. I am happy they are coming. They are my good friends and they havent seen our new house. (its raining again) But there's dirty dishes from *gulp* last weekend still. I guess I am pretty tired. And we've spent A LOT of time working in the yard. Hubby built a raised bed for our garden and I helped. We've been planting stuff in the front yard and its going to look GREAT when we finish. I LOVE this house and feel like its mine (we are just renting) so I want to take pride in it. Inside and out. But I can barely take care of baby right now. I am so depressed. I HATE that. I am sick of being depressed.  I have every reason to be happy. We are doing so much better in every way right now but I am still depressed. How can you be happy and depressed at the same time? It isn't right. I not really upset with MIL anymore. Unless someone has built a time machine it's over and done so theres nothing I can do to save my milk. So I have to just get over it. Baby just woke up from her nap so I have to get her

THanks void