complaining

I am having a real bad day today. I wish I had someone to call and talk to. I do but I feel guilty laying this mess on someone. And I don't want to hear "oh he will be ok, Its no big deal" it is a big deal. I have been through a lot in my life but I think this is the worst because its my baby. If it were me it would suck but it would only be half as bad. I am so stressed that I have been getting tension headaches everyday. I have one now. It starts in my jaw. My mouth is hurting because I keep clenching my teeth without realizing it. I don't know how to relax that muscle. I am so depressed that I can barely get anything accomplished. I have not been cooking dinner. I didn't make Carmen her breakfast today. I fed her animal crackers and grapes. It could have been worse but I just can't do it. Oh no wait I made her yogurt with tomatoes and avocados. Well it was kinda her brunch. And she took a SUPER long nap today. like 4 hrs. Which I spent laying in bed with Louie. This blog is turning super negative again.