Confused

I really don't know how I am feeling today. Confused or maybe just tired. My heart hurts so much. I don't like hearing people say "oh its going to be ok" no its not. If my little boy his this this is NOT ok. It does not make me feel better to ignore my feelings. I am tired

Yesterday I was getting Carmen ready for bed and calming her down. We were watching a nature movie. She loves animals. Anyway Louie was crying so I went and got him and Carmen starts patting her pillow. I said do you want me to put him next to you? and she shakes her head yes. So my babies were laying next to eachother and carmen was hugging louie. It melted my heart.

ETA: I am no longer confused I am having a BAD day