Well today sucks already.
I have major depressive disorder and it has gotten worse since Louie was born. To the point that I have been having very scary thoughts. My Dr changed my meds from zoloft to pristiq. But with pristiq I cannot breastfeed. I started it today. So today I have to wean the boy.
Last night I went to the store to buy formula so He could eat today. And I cried. I was standing in the isle reading the label doing the ugly cry. And I am a really ugly cryer. My face turns all red and blotchy and my eyes puff up instantly and my nose runs.
My heart is broken. I mean its better to have a good mom than to be breast fed but I love bfing. And Louis is my last baby. So no more.... unless we can adopt like we want but thats never going to happen.
Also it sucks because I am quitting cold turkey so I am going to have to deal with engorged boobs and a very upset boy when he realizes that he gets no more nu nu.
I am just going to go back to bed. That will work.
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