Friday, April 22, 2011

Poor me

Today sucks.  I am having such a shitty day.  Carmen and Louis were conspiring against me, together.  I fell and hurt my knee thanks to Louis.  So then I had to bathe them standing up and leaning over. It was just thing after thing after thing all day.  I almost didn't post today because I have nothing nice to say but then I wouldn't be true to myself. And it always makes me feel better to complain to the void.  I am hoping tomorrow is better but I'm not going to hold my breath.  

I am feeling so sad right now that my heart physically hurts. My whole body aches too.  I guess that is what the problem really is.  I am so depressed.  And I am second guessing myself. Am I really depressed or am I lazy and everyone feels this way but they don't give in to it. I am so tired I wish I could sleep for 100 years.  I want to feel better.  I want to be happy.  I haven't been able to leave the house for several days. I've barely even gone outside.  But I did clean my kitchen cabinets today.  I am just too tired 
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4 comments:

  1. LizaApril 22, 2011 at 7:11 PM

    I found your blog through Band Back Together and I felt compelled to write to you tonight. This post and your last one speak to me so much you have no idea. I too am a mom of little ones, struggling with depression. I have two beautiful children, a husband who loves me, a good job, and yet I am terribly unhappy all the time and I have no idea why......Depression is such a horrible sickness and I, like you, am forever searching for the way to feel better, to break out of this horrible prison. Unfortunately I don't have answers for either of us, but I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone, that someone else feels the same way you do, that someone else understands....if u ever want to chat, my email door is open (glickgirls at gmail) Virtual hugs to you and I hope tomorrow is a better day for both of us!

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  2. AmbyLandApril 22, 2011 at 7:14 PM

    Thank you for commenting. It does make me feel better to know someone understands. Tomorrow will be a better day :)

    *hugs*

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  3. RuthApril 22, 2011 at 7:56 PM

    Amber, I really hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

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  4. AmbyLandApril 22, 2011 at 8:00 PM

    Thank you Ruth. I hope its good for you too

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