Dreams

I have not been sleeping good for a few months  now.

And I really need my sleep

My counselor was concerned with how much I sleep but I told him I really don't sleep good so I need 10 to 12 hours a night to function

But lately I have been taking Sean's ambien

Shhhh, don't tell anyone

Its been giving me more dreams than normal

But they have been pretty therapeutic

I dreamed that my ex-boyfriends sister told me she broke us up because he wasn't good enough for me.

And I had more but I can't really remember them

I think its because I am working on anger right now in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT)

One exercise they have you do is instead of picturing yourself wringing someones neck and working yourself up, you picture them embarrassing themselves.

For instance picturing them in a diaper with hairy legs.

It helps you let things go

So I have been doing that with stuff that upsets me in any way

It is so nice to think of how I wish things had gone instead of focusing on what went wrong

Right now I am trying to picture someone apologizing to me for thinking that they had a say in potty training Carmen when they absolutely did not. 

It is making me feel better

You should try it