Last night I fell asleep by 9 so today I am feeling better. Not getting enough sleep takes a big toll on me. I am sitting on the front porch listening to the symphony and drinking coffee. I am in heaven. The squirrdles (Louis calls the squirrels squirrdles and now I do too) really crack me up.
I am pretty worried that MIL found my blog. Because Sean pinned a recipe I had here. Its stressing me out. I don't know what to do. I am thinking about writing an open letter to her. Because I love my MIL. I have some issues but that doesn't change that she is family. I have very similar issues with my own mother. They are just easier to handle because she lives 6 hours away.
The last 2 days I have not been feeling as well. I missed a night of sleep and it threw me off. Hopefully last night will help and I will feel better again. I keep thinking about the hospital were I was. How nice it was to rest and take naps. And to take a technology break. I LOVE my phone and computer too much. I spend way too much time on them. Not doing anything useful. I read blogs (i am not going to stop doing that) and facebook and that sort of thing. It seems like I am either on my computer or my phone all day. I am going to have a turn it off rule. And a go outside rule.
Oh I forgot to update everyone (or maybe not). Daycare went GREAT. They both asked if they could go back. Um yes please. So now I have options. And when I need a break I can just call Ms B. Who is delightful.
We are having family time right now so I have to go.
I have to unplug sometimes or I go nuts.
ReplyDeleteWhen I get overly tired, I get a lot of anxiety.
I've thought of writing a letter to my sister to. She reads my blog sometimes and things going on with her are bugging me, but I am still on the fence about it.
Once it's out there, it's out there.
You have different issues with your MIL so this may be a good thing.
I have issues with my own MIL, but my husband does too so she knows enough to keep quiet on certain things so she can have a relationship with him or our daughter.
Glad the kids like daycare.
Not difficult to start a new blog. No one can keep up with you if you don't want them to.
ReplyDeleteFor me, blogging is therapeutic, I just sit down and barf out what I'm thinking... then I don't have it in my head anymore. :)
But you haven't said anything hateful here. You've been straightforward about what's bothering you, you've said that you don't blame her, that she has issues too, and that you're still seeing her BY CHOICE. So even if she IS reading here, who cares? Really.
I need to turn my computer off once in awhile, too. It's hard. I love it. :0