2013

Its a new year. Its exciting to think of what may come this year.

Today is a good day (although I have only been awake for 30 mins and am still on my first cup of coffee)

Yesterday was a nice day too

I saw my therapist. I love her. She listens to me bitch about everything and then helps me deal with it. And this time she told me I am doing everything I can to deal with things and not to be impatient with my recovery. She is right. I need time to get better and to give things a chance to work. 

I got laid off. And I am fine with it but Sean is not. He wants me to get a full time job. If I have to I will get a full time job but the truth is that I don't need to. He makes enough that we can pay all the bills and still have about 500$ left over a month. And we paid off 2 of our 4 credit cards and only have 1 payment on the truck. Any money I made would go to entertainment most likely. So I don't understand why it bothers him so much. I want to stay home with the kids. I do not want to work more than 3 days a week. 

Starting today I am going to try a vegan diet. Not super strict. Maybe I should say vegetarian instead of vegan because I have some cheeses that I will probably not be able to stay away from. But I am going to have Rips Big Bowl for breakfast. I went grocery shopping yesterday and bought as much fruit and veggies as I wanted. We have apples, strawberries, clementines, bananas, mangos, grapes, and kiwi for snacks and sweets. I got a ton of food for the diet and I spent 148$ for the whole week. And that includes 20$ worth of  bread, crackers and cheeses for dinner last night. I may have gone a little crazy. But I have gained almost 25 lbs back. I hate that. I am sliding back into bad habits. The way I have been eating I feel sluggish. I know everyone says that but I can't poo properly when I haven't been eating my veggies.  

I am excited about this year. I have better health. Better finances. Its going to be a good year.

I am going to take things 1 day at a time and take a step back to give myself time to deal with things. I am not going to make any resolutions. I am just going to live.