A New Normal

I am feeling sorry for myself today

The kids are with MIL and I really miss them

I have been enjoying them a lot lately

I got so depressed after I dropped them off I cried half the way home

We have been doing good on our diet again and I lost 15 lbs so far

I have 24 to get back to my lowest since I started losing

Today I made myself low carb cookies

Regular cookies are SO much better

I have to keep reminding myself that its for the kids

(the healthy lifestyle not the cookies)

Both my goobs have been so good lately

And sweet

Carmen kisses me randomly all the time

And shes always asking to help me do things around the house

They clean their room with a reasonable amount of asking-begging-threatening

Louis kisses my forehead and tells me he "muffs" me

It kills me

I am doing good right now

Maybe not today so much

Killer cramps

But taking a break from MIL has helped me so much

I going to spend the rest of today watching  The New Girl and doing girly stuff for myself