Lately

When I got home and turned on my computer, the space bar was broken. I just got the new one in today and replaced it myself. Feeling pretty good about myself.

I am off my meds right not. It was because of a policy change at my Dr. office. Its a state run operation and they did not have a clinic in office to distribute meds but were creating one and I fell through the cracks. I'm not mad about it because I was already wanting to go off the meds anyway. I didn't feel like they were helping anymore and I was back on one that already had not worked before. So its been 2.5 weeks now and I am feeling, dare I say better without them. (knock on wood) Sean is watching me closely and I am watching myself. When I got on meds I desperately needed them. I was thinking about killing the kids when I killed myself. But I so far am not having any feeling like that at all. Even just about myself. I have been feeling angry but its only slightly worse than normal. I am working on it. I have been very productive. That is my measuring point. If I am able to do stuff then its working. If I am stuck in bed then its not working. 

My vacation was so amazing. I cannot wait till I can go on another one like it. Sean and I are talking about going to an all inclusive one just the 2 of us. I see what people love about vacations. 

Sean got a new job opportunity that I can help him with. Its close captioning movies and stuff. Its a side job that pays very well. I am going to do as much of the transcribing as I can. We have a lot of plans for the money. Hopefully this will work for us. 

That is me enjoying a rum and coke on a turquoise beach 

That is Louie enjoying the sandy pool

That is Carmen being Sassy in her new suit