Sean gets irritated with me because I run from subject to subject (its a woman thing, at least in my family) when we are talking. I can't help it. I talk to a small mumbler all day. She responds to me but most of the time I have no idea what she is saying. I wonder if she thinks the same thing about me.
I had a post all planned out in my head yesterday but because I have such a bad memory I cannot remember what it was.
Yesterday I was telling a guy I work with how bad I feel for my dad because I am doing a bad job working for him. My friend (M) suggested that it was my meds making my mind not work and could I get off of them and take herbal meds instead. So I explained how bad I was. I told him that I was going to kill myself and that the kids would be ruined so I was going to kill them too. And thats why I got help. And that I needed my meds for the safety of my family and myself. He was so nice about it. He told me that I can only do what I can do and just keep trying. I don't think he had any idea. He made me feel better.
You have to do what is best for you.
ReplyDeleteI used to take meds but not anymore. I got all the spaciness among other side effects and now I try a more natural approach.
But everything works differently for different people.