Yesterday we got to go on a date. It was so nice. We ate the most amazing indian food. Then we went to the mall and got Sean his beauty products. Its funny because he is so spoiled now. He uses Lush shaving cream and face soap. He is such a diva. And then we went to get him some jeans because his jeans are literally falling off of him.
But I am having a horrible day. I have been doing worse and worse lately. I feel so heartbroken all the time. So tired and like I cannot breathe. What is wrong with me? Nothing is helping.
I was trying to explain how I felt to Sean but he doesn't get it.
I feel like I can't do it any more.
My house is such a pig sty. I can't stand it.
My whole world is tainted shades of gray
I hate gray
I love vibrant color
Does anyone else loose all of their patience with their babies? Sometimes I yell at them and every time it kills me. It is totally unacceptable to me but I can't help it.
It makes me feel like such a shitty mom and person.
Amby, I have lost patience with my daughter more times than I can remember.
ReplyDeleteI am a lot calmer now. But when she was little it wasn't pretty.
Anyone that says how great being a mother is ALL THE TIME isn't telling the truth.
I grew up being yelled at so I never wanted to do that to my kids. And I feel like if I can't control myself now what am I going to do later
ReplyDeleteI don't have kids but I think that knowing that you aren't liking how you feel and how you are with them is a step in the right direction and wanting to change that, & actually trying too, makes you a great mom cause I know a few that don't:-)
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