Yesterday was an appointment with the clinic to make sure I qualified to get services there. Having the diagnosis of major depression was not severe enough. I only qualified because I still think about killing myself daily.
But the Dr qualified me, and that is what matters
The plan of action is a psych evaluation at the end of next month
And after that cognitive therapy along with medication
I am feeling very hopeful about it. I think that is exactly what I need. I have to change the way I am thinking. But I know its going to be very hard and I am apprehensive about that.
I panicked a little bit when the Dr was searching for what qualified me.
Now I just need to get some help for Sean.
P.S. I was able to write this with only one interruption because we are at the jumpy house and my kids are entertaining themselves. Yahoo!!!
Sorry you've got depression. I have pretty much the same, give or take a bit. I hope that the treatment you get works.
ReplyDeleteIsn't depression just a bugger. And the mental health care system is sometimes a little wacky itself. I doubt only providing help when someone is suicidal daily is really a good solution in the big picture.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find the treatment helpful. I tried meds initially and after many years of tring, never found any that help me. The cognitive/behavioral stuff has helped me though. I've heard that healthy habits in lifestyle are actually more effective than meds for depression. So, I consider my daily workout to be part of my meds regement and my relaxation techniques to be another and my eating healthfully to be another, and my efforts to stay socially connected another, and so on. It is work but it does help me. I hope either meds or lifestyle changes will make a difference in your experience.
Also, my kids getting older has really helped me. Having them old enough to be in school and give me a chance breath and take care of myself has really made a difference.
Take it easy, life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.
ReplyDeleteAlways remember:
You aren't alone.