I am feeling super BLAH today. It's just one of those days I guess. I was telling Sean today that I want to talk to my Dr. about possibly switching meds or if its just that I am expecting too much from zoloft. He jumped all over that. He said "you are just expecting too much its not all dancing and laughing all the time" in a super obnoxious voice. I got upset because he didn't even ask how I feel. He just assumes that he knows. He has no idea. I know what it feels like to not be depressed....thats how I want to feel.
It makes me think about Britney Spears and how she went crazy. Money buys you irresponsibility. I would totally go batshit crazy if I could but I can't. I have to take care of my babies, there is no other option. I cannot hire a nanny. I have to clean and cook. There is no one else. Just me. Sean works I take care of the rest. I guess its a good thing because I don't need a conservatorship. I just have bad days and Carmen gets to watch a lot of tv.
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