The difference between having 1 child and 2 is HUGE. Carmen has been gone 2 days and I feel like I am on vacation. It has nothing to do with how much I love her or miss her its just, I have me time. When I put Louis down for his nap...I can do whatever I want, for hours. He takes a 3 hour nap in the morning and in the afternoon.
For example heres how this morning went: 8am I got up got the boy his bottle, changed his diaper and then we cuddled on the couch for a while. Then I got his breakfast and fed him then in his bed he goes for his morning nap. I have from 9:30 until 12 to clean and do my own thing.
I plan to get a lot of little things done while Carmen is gone.
It seem like lately I am having bad anxiety about leaving the house at all and when I have to take the babies by myself it is almost impossible for me to overcome it.
If its not 1 thing its another. I just want to get better. I am tired of living this way. I have to fight myself. Its a never ending battle and I am so tired. Oh well. I may not win everytime but I am going to keep fighting. I know I am cheesy, its just a part of who I am.
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