Grouchyness

I feel like shit today. For no particular reason. It sucks

But I did find out that I am going to be childless for 3 days and I am a little excited about that.

I will miss them terribly but it will be so nice to sleep in. And go to bed when I feel like it.

And maybe go on a date or to the movies. 

I wish my sister wasn't leaving the country

I am having a lot of anxiety

Ohh I think I am pmsing

Man I was hoping the bad pms was over.

I guess we will find out soon.

I am feeling major fatigue

Even though we took care of the problem, every month I fear that Sean's vasectomy fixed itself and I am pregnant. I asked if he had anxiety about it and he said no that if it did it would be a true gift from god. That reply made me happy but it still scares me. I am not sure I would survive another pregnancy. And I feel like I am finally gaining stability and adjusting to having 2 kids and I am not sure if I could handle another. Not that I don't want one. I do. But I realize that it would not be a good thing for me. 

Sorry to share this verbal diarrhea