My parents are here for a visit. They came in on saturday. We were at my sisters house because her husband cut his finger with a saw pretty bad. My dad took my BIL to the ER while my mom and I stayed at my sisters house with her. We were talking and my mom blurted out "your dad had a stroke" I thought she was joking but . . . no. My dad had a stroke about 3 weeks ago but didn't get any treatment for it. He went yesterday for a ct-scan. We are getting the results today. In about 45 minutes.
I am so scared. I love my dad so much. I know everyone loves their dad and I am not special but I really love him and I don't know what I will do without him. This is not something we should have to deal with. Because I know he is not going to take care of himself. He had a fucking stroke and didn't get treatment. He had a heart attack about 10 years ago and he has diabetes and he refuses to take medication for it. He even stopped taking asprin until he had the stroke.
I feel like I am already grieving him and he hasn't died yet. I wish I could be helping more but I cannot. I cant go to the Dr with them. I wouldn't be any help if I did. I feel so helpless. And Sad.
I told him I am scared and he looked me in the eye and said "I'm fine" I am going to punch him if he says that to me again.
All I want to do is eat and sleep. And the kids and I have a cold so we cannot go to the Jumpy House.
ETA: My dad is going to be ok! well if he takes his medication and eats right and exercises. The stroke was preventable.
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