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Friday, February 3, 2012

I will not apologize

I am feeling so sad this morning. I should be feeling great. I got to go get an awesome spa pedicure last night with my sister. It had a sugar scrub, a 15 minute massage and a hot stone massage. But I don't. Because when I got home a certain husband was in a horrible mood. So everything tensed up right away. At least my toes still look pretty. They are red with glitter on top. Every time I look at them I smile.
But anyway. Sean, bad mood. and then this morning I read the post he put on his blog. he said "I could air my grievances and cuss in public, for all the world to see. But I’m not like that. Why add more negativity to a world of negativity"

I post how I am feeling on here because its my outlet. I can be shaking with emotion and after I post here, I feel calmed and validated. I can move on when I post in anger because I let it out. I am not going to apologize for being me. Or for being upset. I think this is a healthier way to let it out than being super moody and grouchy all the time. And I don't snap at the people I love and say really hurtful things. 

But I do want to say that if I am too negative for anyone, please feel free to stop following me. Or skip the sad posts. I am being true to myself as every one should be. I am trying to create happiness. 




he's laughing : D

Because it makes me smile

  
Posted by AmbyLand at 6:29 AM
Labels: Bad Days

4 comments:

  1. Principled SlutFebruary 3, 2012 at 11:06 AM

    I don't always comment on your more negative posts, but I understand fully the need to have a place to just let it out. If it works for you, then by all means just keep doing it. Your blog should be for YOU first, not for anyone else.

    The picture made me smile too. :) And nothing much is doing that today, so thank you.

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  2. Journo June aka MamaBearFebruary 6, 2012 at 2:57 PM

    Blogging is actually pretty good for cheap therapy! It's YOUR blog, so write what you want, no one is forced to read it. And that photo made me laugh! :-D Regarding your little one, the difference between my two kids was like night and day with the time schedule of different developments. 1st was a precocious little girl who talked and read way early. The 2nd, my son, was content to take his time. They are now both wonderful, bright and fun adults. We've had many worries with different health issues, and came close to losing our son a few times, he has a very serious incurable disease. But you do what you can for your children and leave the rest to God. I will praying that you get the answers that will give you comfort and nothing to worry about!

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  3. Journo June aka MamaBearFebruary 6, 2012 at 2:58 PM

    PS my email is on my blog if you want to contact me and vent. I'm a good listener! Hugs!

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  4. AmbyLandFebruary 6, 2012 at 3:06 PM

    Thank you guys. I really appreciate the support. Sean is having trouble with his meds and its made him a little harder to get along with. virtual hugs are the best :)

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