I am having a bad day today. I am feeling very depressed and grouchy. All I want to do is sleep and read but I have these things called kids, and they do not like it when Mommy lays down.
I am feeling very hopeless. What if I don't get better than this. I don't want to live like this. I feel like a cartoon with the little rain cloud that follows them around. The sadness is always there. It blocks out my joy. Today I was pushing my kids on the swings in our back yard. They were laughing madly like little crazy people. I just wanted to go inside and be alone. Their laughs usually at least make me smile but not today. And we got Carmen a puzzle to play with. She asked me to play with her so I sat on the floor to play. It made me mad that I was having to sit there. It should have been fun. I love puzzles and I love Carmen but I wanted to throw her puzzle in the trash and lock her in her room.
I hope you are feeling better today. I am sorry that I do not have any advice for you but I wanted you to know I was "listening".
ReplyDeleteThank you Lynn. It does help
DeleteI am so sorry that you are feeling this way. It must be a heavy burden to carry around. I don't know if you're already seeing someone, but having someone professional and objective to talk to might help. Take care!
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