Anxiety

I am having major anxiety right now because my best friend went into labor today I am not going to get to be with her. Sean had volunteered to watch the kids and let me go but hes at work and when I hinted that I wanted him to come home early he got all huffy and said he had to work late. Not only does my friend (from now on she will be known as Bea) want me to be there, I am dieing to be with her. I have that nasty feeling in the pit of my stomach and my chest is tight. And I feel sad. I have been planning this for longer than shes been pregnant. She was with me when I gave birth to my first and I wanted to be with her. I am trying to calm myself but its not working