Better

This weekend was really rough. We found out my dad will have to have surgery on Wednesday and even though its kind of a relief to know its getting taken care of, its still scary. I feel resentful towards him because this was preventable. He rides my ass about my health but he doesn't take care of his own. At this point I am healthier than he was at my age. Asshole.

Also today I had Louis screened because he doesn't talk yet. He will be evaluated in Jan. I feel sad that something might be wrong with him but good because I felt like something was not right. No matter what it is, its never ok for your baby to not be perfect.

And Sean was out of town all week last week and left again today. I miss him so much I can't stand it. He came home Saturday night and we just held each other and talked He is my best friend. He was saying something about if he has to take the camera man job and I told him no. It will not work for me. No matter what conditions you put on them it isn't going to happen. 

But all things considered, I am still doing good. I am no more tired than normal. And I only cried uncontrollably once. I do wish I could eat an entire bakery but other than that I feel fine. I love wellbutrin!