Sad

I am just having a bad day today. My anxiety is pretty high and my temper is too short. I think its because Sean is being such an asshole. Yesterday at his parents house he was complaining about everything. He was the only one complaining. And he kept hurting his moms feelings. He said that he was defending his dad because his dad does so much for his mom and she still nags and picks at him. All I could think was how familiar that sounds. I told him that he was the one who has to change and find a way to get along with his mom because she is not going to change and then he said that it was her problem he wasn't going to give in so she could be selfish. He was acting exactly like her. 

Also every time I make a mistake with the kids in front of him, he acts like I am a horrible mom. I lifted Carmen from her chair after dinner and accidentally scratched her leg. It didn't really hurt her or anything but he was like "You did it AGAIN. EVERY TIME" right in front of his family. 

I am so pissed at him right now. 

The only reason I slept with him last night was because our bed is a memory foam and the only one I would be hurting was myself. 

I am so tired of having the same arguments every time. EVERY TIME. 

Stupidity is doing the same thing over and over expecting a different outcome.

I need to just give up for today. This is the most depressed I have been in a long time. I am exhausted. I have a headache. I wish I could drink.

I am sorry to be a downer when everyone else is on a holiday high.

I am done for today